One of the hardest parts of this whole experience has been the feelings of vagueness that we experience on sometimes a daily basis. We sometimes feel that things are out of our control. It has been strange to look into the next couple of months and know that we will still be going through chemo, still dealing with body aches, still riding an emotional roller coaster, and asking the questions of 'why did this come to us' and 'what are we supposed to learn/gain from these experiences'.
Another thing we have noticed is it's also difficult for those on the edges or the periphery of this experience; all our friends and family who desperately want to do something to help but just don't know what, if anything, they can do. We know there are some of you who would take this from us in a heartbeat if it could be done, we are so thankful to those who have sacrificed so much of your time to step in and watch kids and to be with Anna. We would like to offer some ideas for things that can be done for those of you who are far away at this time.
Here it goes. We would like to hear uplifting thoughts or experiences that have helped you during difficult times. Those things that you fall back on during hard times that help you to re-center and keep things in perspective. As these stories or thoughts might be of a personal nature we would offer our personal e-mails (keyextra@yahoo, annafarmer.30@gmail) as a way for you to share those stories or thoughts with us. We would love if you would be willing to post them on the blog but realize some hesitancy of sharing those thoughts with the public.
Currently the thought that is helping Ben is the Proverb 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths."
The things that have really helped Anna are the notes, phone calls and service/time from family and friends. She knows she can not do this alone and is very humbled with the kindness offered to her. Anna is so grateful for the power of the Priesthood and the opportunity to have blessings; they are a huge comfort to her during this time. Her faith in her Savior has grown so much as she studies the scriptures on a regular basis in order to have the companionship of the Holy Ghost in her life. What a great comfort the gospel brings into our lives.